Father's Day

Dearest Dad

Sitting here thinking about you,
I here you call my name,
gudia,gudia

As I turn to see who's calling me
I see no one, only hear your voice.

I glance across the room,
To see if anyone else hears it too.

But no one seems to notice the look on my face.

I miss you so much,
I keep telling you,
But you don't seem to hear me.


As the tears rolled down my face,
I glance around the room,
And see you amongst my family.
The look upon your face says you're peaceful now.

I realized it was time to let you go.
Although I will always love and miss you.

I turn my head to see if anyone notices you.
Then I turn back, and you're gone.

I hear you, so very gently say,
"I love you", "Good- Bye!"
Take care.
Don't cry bcoz life goes on....

"Bye", I said . . .

Because I feel Blessed

They say that you should never judge a book by its cover, and, especially regarding people, it’s true. I was about to meet someone, that too after hearing a lot about her from others. Was waiting to meet her and I guess it was quite natural that even I started to draw her personality sketch in my mind. After many experiences that I had, almost every time I failed to draw the true character sketch of a person. It’s so hard to understand people because what they show is actually what they are not. So, the first thing that clicks to my mind is the negative qualities that one can have. But, for her, I was so confused even in making a rough, vague sketch in my mind so I said: leave it and let’s meet her.

“Hi, I’m Nidhi Shah
Hi, I’m Megha.”

And here comes a stranger initially but a true friend now in my life that made a difference. Throughout my life I have met with different people who have changed my perspective of life. Everyone says life has many ups and downs, but the only way to climb over the difficulties are to work hard and never give up. It’s easier to give an advice. But, when you have a friend like, Nidhi who will support you at every step you take, then automatically life seems easier. She always carries a smile on her face. Ever since I met her, I also have a smile on my face. The fun loving, always ready to help, makes you eat lots of tasty food, listening to you, giving the correct advice every time you are confused, all this perfectly describes her. Over the past 2 months of my life she has always been an important person who has an impact on me in many different ways.

I still remember the first day we met
It's funny to think back to that time
because now we're having a crazy time!

Our bond is extremely special
It is unique in its own way
We have something irreplaceable

We've been through so much together
In so little time we've shared
I will never forget all the moments
that you've shown me how much you cared.

Friends are forever
especially the bond that you and I possess
I love your fun-filled personality
Somehow you never fail to impress.

The world could use more people like you
it would certainly be a better place
I love everything about you
You are someone I could never replace.

You are always there for me
When my spirits need a little lift
I cannot thank you enough for that
You are truly an extraordinary gift.

You are everything to me and more
I could never express that enough
Life is such a two-faced journey, and
Without you it would be even more tough.

Our story will continue to grow
With each passing day
Because I trust that with you by my side
Everything will always be Okay.

You are so dear to me
You know I will love you until the end
I will always be there for you, and
You will always be my best friend.
The next thing that comes to my mind is “How do you say thank you to a friend for simply being there? Or for helping you out when you need a hand? Or for the endless care you get? There are so many ways to express your love, gratitude and appreciation. But is that enough? Because what she has done for me I can’t do in my whole life. Someone said one day: “when someone gives you something, it’s better to give something in return”.

So,keeping that in mind,for everything you did for me, in return I PROMISE TO BE THERE FOR YOU. You might have lots of friends to help you and support you more than me, but still remember I'll be always there to make you smile.

Because you are one of the reason for "my smile".


Cheers to our friendship.
All the Best.

Brain Cells on a “FIGHT”

I have read a lot many times that the more we think, the more problems we create for ourselves. But then tell me just one way to stop my brain from thinking especially when every other thing happening makes your brain cells active.

Then someone said when you have lots of things in your mind the best you can do is share it with someone and in worst case when you have no body to share ‘WRITE IT DOWN’.

To say that I am lost would be an understatement. I had no clue who I was and I had no clue what I wanted from life— all I knew was that it sure as heck wasn’t this. Conventional wisdom would say, “Think hard and figure your problem at all costs.” Instead, I did the opposite— I dropped the exhausting notion that I had to have it all figured out, and I dove head first into the deep waters of uncertainty.

The question that I ask myself is: can life ever be certain?
Is it even possible to have it all figured out? Does such a thing even exist? The one’s I consider my friends are really my friends? The one’s according to me our happy, are really happy? Why on earth I’m the one overweight and have to compromise on normal stuff? If I’ll ever find someone who’ll love me the way I am? When will I feel that yes I have achieved something? When will my dreams come true?

Not to be depressing, but life is weird.

Who’s to say that any single thing in your life might not change in an instant?
Maybe life is a never-ending mystery, and your only job is to learn to be ok with that. But till when? Why is that every time I have to compromise with my dreams and wishes and especially when the compromises I’m doing is just because of the not so fair life. I can rest in the questions; I can live in the bittersweet mystery.

Life it is confusing, rough, and twisted. Every single one of us has a destined road –imposed to us. I believe paths can be switch; fate can be change, for everything is possible if we just believe. Everything's racing through my mind but mixed, so mixed and confusing!
What should I to do at first? Is this, what I have to start with?
Or is this more important? I have to decide what's better, what's more important, and what’s more efficacious!
Why is everything difficult?
How can I then trust myself? And how can I achieve something when I'm deciding always to go in the wrong direction? Time After Time, I find I question my life. How I went wrong? Will it ever be right? Will I rise? Will I fall? Stand tall? Continue asking but, only God knows."

I still feel lost.

But just as I had done before, I gave myself permission to feel this way. I learned to hold the uncertainty and to live in it until it was no longer an enemy. I learned to rest in the open-ended question that is life and to let myself steep in the mystery and the wonder of it all.
But at the same time, I have things figured out more than I ever have before. I’ve learned to look less to others for definition and more to myself. I no longer need your attention to feel like I’m somebody. For the first time in my life, I’d rather be alone than be untrue to myself.

Woke up this morning glanced outside my bedroom window I can see my life so clearly, in this place I’m supposed to be. I can see the light now, kind of dim really aren’t that bright now but still giving me a ray of hope. If I want to survive doing it now is the right time I got to try and save me, anything I got to do, I got to do perfect.

It's too much too handle. I'm happy with life but, I got this feeling I'm not fully happy on whom I am. It’s all confusing but I know the major problem is that I think too much. But do I have a solution to it?


"To make decisions and find solutions to your problems is one of the hardest things to learn and a big step to become older, wiser"
said once my mother, and she's right!

So I sit down and think about the things that I've done and I will do....tomorrow, today and yesterday. Maybe I will sit down and think about the things I did. And then I would see the right decisions that I've should made.
And so I would stand up again and would see in my mind what to decide next. And then I would think about it longer than normally.
And then I would find the way out to a bright place.